Busy Busy Busy.....OK I'm lazy

So it has been a long time since i have posted anyn of my thoughts or feelings here. Ive been busy busy busy.... not really just lazy. I can justify being busy but have no excuse for the laziness. So we will call it busy. I have been to Disneyland Several times this year. I love it. All my worries and hate melt away as soon as i walk in and hear the music playing. Its a good refresher for me to go once a month (good thing for season passes).

Why?

Today is one of my Sad days.... I don't want to do anything, go anywhere or see anyone.  I want to stay in bed.  I don't want to face the World. I get depressed and eat and eat.... Damn Cookies.   

Live your Dreams not in them!!

January has been a month of finding myself.  I find myself wishing a lot about things.  This month i've had some break throughs.  I need to dream and follow through.  I can't just sit back and hope that all my dreams come true.  I need to put forth the effort.  My new life mantra...  Live your dreams not in them! 

We can't prevent what we can't predict

I was watching Desperate housewives on Jan 8 and I was already having an emotional day. When this scene played I cried and cried. There was a special message in there for me. "We can't prevent what we can't predict!"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cGIEHNiwpy8

A ME DAY

Today was a day to reflect on me. I spent the day looking at things I would like to accomplish with my life. These things are short term and long term. While reflecting on me I had a come to Jesus moment. The things that my heart desires are not of the worldly things but things that make me a better person.... My friend Todd and I are going to make vision boards tonight, this is what got me thinking about things. The first vision was a new car BMW. I thought my vision board would be full of goodies and toys. My thoughts turned to school, health, friends and family. It's funny when you stop and listen to yourself.... My inner self has been yelling at me for over a year and I failed to listen. I hadn't taken the time or haven't wanted to hear what my inner self needs. I've been hiding not wanting to share my feelings, concerns or desires with anyone. Today I listened. Today my journey begins.

New Year...... New Beginnings

It's the first of the year and time to make resolutions.  This year I have made some resolutions to improve myself.  I'm going to post some of my resolutions here.  I hope that those who read will help me, remind me and encourage me to keep them.   

1. See my kids more often

2. Keep good friends

3. Reconnect with family members

4. Be financially responsible (not to incur unnecessary debt)

5. Lose 20 lbs before may 1

6. Love myself, let others love me

7.  Stop Drinking Coca-Cola.... ( this will be the hardest)

Christmas Havoc

Christmas seems to be a crazy time of the year. I get caught up in the Commercialism of Christmas and spend spend spend. I try to impress people by giving crazy gifts all on one day. This year I am taking a more simplistic approach to Christmas. I'm going to make it the "Year of Christmas" I'm not going to celebrate on just one day but throughout the year. Gifts may be given at random to those that share in my life. I have some great friends and family memebers that mean so much to me. You have brought joy, peace, love and honor into my life. You are there for me in the fun and tough times. You ease my burdon durng the tough times. I thank each of you for being there.
This year Christmas seems Different... Something I haven't felt in years. Christmas has been fun. I enjoyed the Christmas songs, the decorations, the beauty of the season. I had a simple Christmas with my Friends and Family. My niece called me a scrooge because i kept things simple. I found the meaning of Christmas.....